American Spear Ritual

by sean alan

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released April 1, 2012

Mastered By Alex Saltz at APS Mastering NYC

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sean alan Los Angeles, California

Equal Parts edge and heart, Sean Alan is an L.A. based singer/songwriter who has fronted numerous bands including The Atma, Squirrel TV, and Peppermint Wolf. Currently he is rapping up his first hip hop album. Highly political and intensely personal, his lyrics paint vivid portraits that could easily stand alone in a book without music. ... more

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Track Name: Looking Out For Number One
I don’t wanna be the kind of man
Who’s living large stealing bread from somebody’s hand
No no no no no no no no no no no
Dont wanna be that man
Now some of you wouldn’t understand
Like you who
See dollar signs when you look at your fellow man
You wouldn’t understand
You wouldn’t understand
You wouldn’t understand
No no no no no you wouldn’t understand

But if you stood out in the rain
Of this world that we have made
You would see the signs that something has gone wrong here
And does our hunger have a name
Other than greed that knows no shame
And if it doesn’t how are we supposed to get along here
Each one looking out for number one?

Don’t wanna be the kind of man
Who’ll cheat you for a dime most any way he can
No no no no no no no no no no no
Don’t wanna be that man
And if you live the big life selling scams
Then you would not
Be one of those who could begin to understand
You wouldn’t understand
You couldn’t understand
You wouldn’t understand
No no no no you wouldn’t understand

But if you stood out in the rain
Of this world that we have made
You would see the signs that something has gone wrong here
And does our hunger have a name
Other than greed that knows no shame
And if it doesn’t how are we supposed to get along here
Each one looking out for number one?
Track Name: Maria
Oh Maria
Why must you lie in your room?
Hate to see you
Hiding away in the shadows
How come?
What’s the matter my love?
What procedure could we do to change your mood?
Pharmacy has kajillions of pills
Here’s some water
Swallow
Here’s some culture
Follow
And don’t you falter
Or people will know
They’ll think your mother
Fucked up raising you

Oh Maria
Why must you wind your cocoon?
Come and be a well-behaved
Teen-age consumer
Honey, get dressed
Burn right through your
Allowance
There’ll be more money
The older you get
One day like mother
You could buy some new breasts
Don’t look so depressed

You want to scream out loud
You hear the wind blowing through the trees
As if your God was saying
With a finger to his lips
“Child, don’t’ you speak.”

Oh Maria
Someday they’ll hand you your age
And you’ll be a
Gray-haired old bill-paying bother
Always in foul moods
Just like your father
And wife number two
You’ll have a daughter
She’ll look just like you
You’ll look upon her
And ask, “Why are you so blue?”
Track Name: End Of The Day
Everyone’s looking at me
Like I’m completely crazy
But I don’t hold it against them
Cause I know that I may be just that
Walking around with my head in the clouds
Looking for something that cannot be found
I know
But someday I’m gonna find it

Cause each day I find my self trying
To find one good reason for smiling
And I can usually find one
By the end of the day

Everyone’s looking at me
Like this guy must be lazy
Why don’t he put on a suit and tie
Seize the day
Be a man
But what they don’t know
Is that I’ve got a plan
Don’t know what it is
But it’s gonna be grand
I know
When it all starts unfolding

Well each day I find my self trying
To find one good reason for smiling
And I can usually find one
By the end of the day

And you’ll know its time
When you feel it in your bones and skin
You’ll know its time
To forget the past
Begin again and get it right
And I’m looking in a book I found for some insight
When the strangest thing occurs to me...

Each day I find my self trying
To find one good reason for smiling
And I can usually find one
By the end of the day
Track Name: 4 walls
You got your 4 walls and fluorescent bulbs
You got your wide high-definition TV's on
And you've been craving something
But you can't put your finger on it now
Put your finger on it now

You got your neighbors living on your street
And you pass by each other but you never speak
You feel like saying something
But you can't seem to talk about it now
When you open up your mouth

You got your song bird statue in the yard
You got your doors all locked
And your windows barred
You got your pills for putting you to sleep
You got your days all scheduled out each week
You got your hair done
And nowhere to go

And you spend your health trying to save your wealth
And then you spend your wealth trying to save your health
It’s always some rose garden up ahead
That you're working toward and then
It’s still up around the bend

You got your song bird statue in the yard
You got your doors all locked
And your windows barred
You got your pills for putting you to sleep
You got your days all schedules out each week
You got your hair done
And nowhere to go
You got your hair done
And nowhere to go
Track Name: 24/7
Oh well you say
Someday
You’re gonna ride into the sunset
Like john wayne
With a loaded revolver
And say make my day
But the only sun that’s setting is over L.A.
And your dirty apartment
Where you sit in the dark and think
“Man I’ve been on the brink of leaping right off a tall building”

And you say
Someday
You’re gonna punch your ugly boss right in his face
But you’re punching a timecard instead, eh babe?
And then you go home with you tail between your legs
And how many mornings will you
Wake up and yawn and think
“How did it get so bleak to be the unfortunate soul that’s me?”

With these no luck never
24/7 porcupines in your brains
And your go-go-get-it spark has gone dead
And only yourself’s to blame
But honey don’t you sweat its just part of getting
Where you was meant to be
And when the goddamn weather starts getting better
It’s you that’s gonna
It’s you that’s gonna wanna sing
Like Freddy Mercury

Oh well you say
Someday
You’re gonna stand right up
And get your head on straight
Soon as you finish your vodka
You say you’re drinking to escape
So why you still inside your cage?
As you stand in your boxer shorts
And light up a smoke and think
“How did it get so bleak to be
the unfortunate soul that’s me
with these no luck never 247 porcupines in my brains?”
Track Name: American Spear Ritual
What have I made what have I done
In moments of fine feeling?
And when my rage was speaking through my mouth
What curses did i exclaim?
And when I swore that I would die
What came alive within my soul
And my brains
That i would live to see another day?

Well I've seen my share of jaded faces
And lions in a cage
And I've seen my share of stressful places
Out there working for the wage
And when you're broke and still must toil
It's like watching water boil
When your standing
Right with the pot up to your face

Working shifts that numb your brains
And grab you by the reins and run you
Down down down
Into the ground
Till the next man takes your place

And when i feel the wind against my face
I wonder what is grace?
To have it all
Or have nothing and never want in the first place?
I came so far what have I chased
And if I never find it there
Shall I think
That all my running was a waste?
Track Name: Courtyards
In the houses of the sinners and the saints
I clawed the walls until I peeled the paint
Learning to tell what is true from what ain’t
But every time I found a light
It turned dim before my sight

In the cold back alleyways of broken glass
I searched amongst the bottles and the trash
For what I had discarded with a laugh
And how the cat plays with its twine
Is how the clock plays with my mind

But oh to be dancing
In an open space
Far from these haunted mansions
Here behind my face
The winding endless stairs
That lead me to nowhere
Man I gotta quit this place

From the lofty views of castle towers
Some man gaze triumphantly for hours
And some need no trophy for their powers
On the balconies of life
In the courtyards of their minds
Track Name: Wrecking Ball
Well I was in my darkest hour
And I stood there
Screaming at the skies and flowers
And I stood there
For years
Oh but darlin not no more

Cause I don’t wanna waste my powers
Throwing bricks till
I build a brick wall that towers
Cause I’ve been there
But see here
Oh now I’m a wrecking ball
Knocking down them walls
Yeah I’m a wrecking ball
Knocking down them walls

And I do not care
What fate commands
Cause I’m taking it
Into my own hands

In the gardens
Of everything I ever wanted
By the ghosts of disappointment i’ve been haunted
And they stopped me
Dead in my tracks
Oh but darling here’s a fact

I’m about to quit this jail cell
Ain’t gonna look back
Ain’t even going to pay my bail
Tell the warden
The prison wall’s about to fall
Oh cause I’m a wrecking ball
Knocking down them walls
Yeah I’m a wrecking ball
Knocking down them walls